by TASHA KEEBLE
I’ve lived in the Bay Area for the last 15 years. It is now a home to me in the same way Oxnard, Pine Bluff, and Atlanta are. I am accustomed to its rhythms and wait for expected changes the way my foot waits for the light to change; I know it’s coming, and I also usually know when.
Seasons change oddly here. We stay a little chilly and resentful all summer, then in fall, we end up quite hot, remembering that this happens every year (I always forget). Summer is fall in the Bay and that means my bedroom window’s open, the ice cream man can earn a little money, and some of this nation’s youngest, most industrious prostitutes have taken over what used to be named E.14th St. in Oakland. International Boulevard. That’s what they call it now, though most of us refuse that name.
For over a year I have waited to interview one of the young girls I see on the street. I do not know why it’s taken so long. I talk to my students everyday and ask them what’s up with them. I try to get them to reflect and consider their choices, in much the same way folks tried to get me to reflect when I was so young and unwittingly vulnerable. I have waited however, for this one. Probably because it’s such an overwhelming proposition: to talk to a street walker like she’s a person, I mean, and imagine that she has a life just as ordinary or as tragic as my own.
I did it tonight. I will share what happened. I will share what I thought. I will share what I felt, but I will not cry.
I see little girls walking up and down E. 14th, unabated by police, social worker, preacher, priest, nun, teacher, parent, grand-parent, auntie, uncle, or cousin. No one. No one.
No one interferes as they wave down the eager men who pick them up in their clean, over-insured minivans, sedans, and fabulous pearl and blue sports cars. They know the girls. They catch their eye and point around the corner. These are grown ups, picking up little girls to drive around in their cars. I don’t know how much the girls charge. I do not know what the girls do, but I can imagine. I also know the girls are young. Very young. Some look as young as 11, or 12—don’t know how to walk in heals; their dresses fit loosely. But no one stops them.
Last year I stopped several girls on one corner, because I frequent a fellowship on this block, see them all the time. I told them to be careful. I also told them they should talk to some of these old “hos out here” and find out what’s really going on. This used to be the end of the line. Now it’s the starting line. I have two daughters of my own and seeing this cavalcade breaks my heart. I stopped fellow-shipping in that place, it wore me out so. I returned, however, some months later with an idea; thinking I would write a story and they would be saved. Someone has to know that this is happening here.
If it were Thailand, it would be a shame. But it’s Oakland, so it’s a different kind of shame. Somehow because these girls live here, they have clearly made this choice. When it’s children in other lands, they are victims. Here, they are making choices. We turn our heads, in order to go on about our business sanely. But please do not turn away. I beg you to listen.
She wore black heels, about 3 inches, a white sleeveless T-shirt and a neat black mini-skirt. She was petite. Maybe 5 feet; weighing about 98 lbs. Her face was long and reddish brown, the color of Georgia clay: maybe African and Latino. Her hair hung wavy, with leave in conditioner and ash blond tips. I walked over and sat beneath a window a few feet away. It’s early evening. The sky is burnt and heaving above us. It’s 84 degrees, and East 14th Street is hot.
I say, “Hey,” and motion her over. I know full well she is accustomed to doing what people ask and that makes me feel safer. “I don’t want nothing from you, but do you mind if I ask you some questions?”
“What kinda questions?” she says a little baffled. Continue reading →